Friday of Wonder

I wonder if there is a greater joy to be felt
Than what I feel when you smile at me
What Ive always wanted
Ive completed a piece of me

Isaiah a name I never knew
Until you came into my life
Now they call you Vida Blue
Or Zeeky

Whatever name you go by
The face will always be the same
The one who stole my heart
The one who wont give it away

You don’t have to be a kid for your dreams to come true
The more you live the more you’ll go through
My son don’t wonder I’ll always be there for you
And when I’m not your Father will never forsake you

Distance

On Distance

I wish I could Distance myself from the worries of this life
Place a huge space between myself and the hurt

I know that distance would cancel out some of my greatest memories
The births the loves the scars that all equal a lesson learned

Im thankful God hasn’t put distance between him and me
all I have to do is take the time to get on my knees

Im ready to go the distance in all aspects of my life
Today is a new day with distance from yesterdays mistakes

Only left is the distance we create
Love makes up all

My Picture of the year

Listening to NPR this morning I found out they are asking for submissions for what Pictures/Sounds of the Year. So here is mine. If you like it please follow the link and vote

http://www.thetakeaway.org/crowdsourcing/submission/19299/

Isaiah is what stands out for me this year. I have always wanted a son to dress up in those cute outfits and hats but when I found out I was pregnant I had mixed feelings. I knew I would love him, but I wanted to move before I had the baby. My fiance and I had talked about moving but the news of the baby pushed everything up. Where I am living my mother’s house there are 8 of us in a two bedroom. I was so worried and stressed trying to find a place, making sure the baby had everything he needed and just wondering how things would work out; that I ended up going into labor 3 weeks early. When he was born he was 4 lbs 10 oz. He was taken from my hospital room two days after he was born and placed into NICU. Then I learned what real worry was. He wasn’t eating enough, he had jaundice, I was trying to breast feed him. So on top of not having my newborn with me I also had to pump enough milk for him (that was no problem) but since I was discharged from the hospital and could only stay over one night (due to hospital regulations) I had to travel back and forth not only to deliver milk but more importantly to have the chance to hold my son. I just wanted him to be okay and to come home. When he did a week later realized it didn’t matter where home was as long as it was full of love. We are still looking for own home but in the meantime I am content and thankful. Thank you Lord

If then God so clothe the grass, which is to day in the field, and to morrow is cast into the oven: how much more will he clothe you, O ye of little faith? And seek not ye what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink, neither be ye of doubtful mind. For all these things do the nations of the world seek after: and your Father knoweth that ye have need of these things. But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you. Fear not, little flock; for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom. Luke 12:28-32

This passage reminds me to be at ease and to let God take care of things. I know he will provide. I need to focus on praising him for what he has done. Someone said praise him in the midst of the storm.

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