My Two Loves

15 Apr

Days work is done. Kids have been bathed, dinner is done, baby is sleeping. I’m up as usual, thinking. Someone please tell me how to get my brain to go to sleep.

After another day with the kids and everything that goes along with that; I’m thinking of exploring other options. What does that mean?

Do I need to spend all day with my two children at home? Its not like we’re here learning mandarin; or working on Jr. Einstein science projects. Don’t get me wrong I am trying to step it up; we will be doing some art projects and we are having more story time. With Isaiah and Juliet its no cake walk.

Hey it could be worse. Like….

Working a minimum wage job; sitting down all day. Calling people begging for donations aka “fundraising”. Lying, being treated as a juvenile, HAVING to gossip with your bosses. Pumping milk in the conference room; being burst in on more than once.

Yes, this is the glass half full. This position I formerly held did offer flexibility, it was part-time w/option for full. More important, it was a laugh. Often we called it the “circus”. I could talk for hours about that job. Who wants a job?

I returned to work when Juliet was 5 weeks old. I missed her; I longed to spend more time with her. Here I am at the cross roads

A. I could continue to stay at home with the kids. At least until they enter pre-school

B. I could run away. (Joke)

C. I could go back to work.

I don’t want to leave the task of raising my children to someone else. I mean I wish I could teach them myself. Who really can train our children better than us, their parents. There is also the fact I really don’t trust anyone but their grandparents with them. Teachers, grandparents, and trust that’s another blog.

I do want a career.

I love to write, to film; to be creative. How can I merge the two? Guess I’ll just have to run away…….

Back to my hunt for the perfect career.

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Five Minute Friday

8 Apr

If you met me….

Maybe you would say why is that smile on her face?
Her hair is a mess
Her clothes are wrinkled
There is throw up on her shirt
There are circle under her eyes
Why is she smiling

If you’d ask me I’d tell you why
Isaiah is my why
Juliet is my why
Two darlings I never dreamed I’d have
Yes they are such a responsibility
Even with the help God has sent me
Even with the extra patience Ive found

They scream and they play
They are loud an they disobey
But without them I wouldn’t be here
They straightened my path
Filled my heart with love and pushed out the wrath

I had to give up some things
To be their mom
No I cant be selfish anymore
Spend my hair money on pampers
Spend fun money on groceries
But all that I had to give up in my life
I didn’t need, Its so worth it
Just remember to smile

Sneaky Snyder & CO.

31 Mar

I woke up yesterday doing my chores, bustling around the house content. Later that day I sat down on my computer checking out the days twitter parties. Unbeknownst to me was the situation unfolding in Lansing, at our state capital building.

To me I did my duty, I voted. I voted for Obama, I voted in all of the special elections here in Detroit and when I thought it counted the most I voted for Bernero. Even though Bernero didn’t win I figured my interests would still be kept in consideration.


It seems the interests of the wealthy that are being protected; and Gov. Snyder is among those who are wealthy. He has no problem looking out for his “own” while turning his back to the rest of people he is supposed to govern.

Gov. Snyder is in the process of enacting laws that will:

Tax pensions- Meaning those who receive SSI (and others) will have to pay taxes on that money.

Eliminate the Earned Income Tax Credit- these credits go to those who make the least cash. By giving them this credit it helps to boost spending in local markets aka our economy.

Cut funding to education and local governments

Lower taxes for our those in our wealthiest classes, while raising taxes for the poorest classes

Appoint officals operate to local governments which will lead to voiding of contracts aka “union busting”.

These areas are where Snyder is taking money so where is it going?

Snyder said he’s happy to share details on how he wants to spend the money in the state’s $45.9 billion budget but doesn’t see a need to lock every dime into a specific category. He wants the Legislature to “hold us accountable for delivering results to people, hold us accountable for showing transparency in where those dollars go and then let us be good managers.”

I want to know how every dollar is going to be spent. I don’t want a general idea of where my money is going. I want specifics. You know exactly where the money is coming from so I would like to know how it will be spent.

Fire Rick Snyder. Curb the Nerd

And this isn’t just a Michigan issue. This is happening in Wisconsin, Ohio, Florida and other states. These type of agendas are being put in place to disenfranchise citizens. We have never been a country to let the rich or powerful totally control us; remember the American Revolution? These guys are taking it too far. Now is the time to stand up for our rights guaranteed by the Constitution.


Bucket List (Subject to change)

1 Dec

I am reminded toay of our mortality. Its something most people try to avoid until they can’t anymore. I’m an optimist so I turned it around.

These reminders can be good for us because it forces us to make plans; to say “Hey I wanna do this and im gonna”. So I was thinking to myself this morning what do I want to do before I’m gone. I’m not a morbid person; but once the wheels get turning its hard for me to stop them. I guess I came up with a partial Bucket List.
Partial because I cant think of everything I really want to do


Play the piano- I’d love to be dressed playing some DeBussy at some elegant affair or at home.

Go skiing/snowboarding- Looks cool and you get to snuggle and drink coco after (win/win)

See my kids graduate- This is every parents dream.

Get married- Every girls dream

Read the Bible- This is a must do on my journey as a Christian.

Write another screenplay- After I finish it I’ll change this to produce film.

Have a spa day- A day to relax and to treat my body to a treat.

Learn another language- A cool thing to do; thinking Spanish,Mandarin or a dead language.

Travel to Italy- It was love at first sight. I must visit Sicily as well. So much history there.

Join the sky high club- Wouldn’t be real if I didn’t put this one on the list.

Visit the pyramids-After all the tv specials I still dont understand how they were built. All I can say is God

Go to a beer fest- I like beer I like parties

See Victoria Falls- A beautiful serene place I’ve got to go see it in person.

Learn my family lineage- I thirst to know where I come from

And you?

My Picture of the year

29 Nov

Listening to NPR this morning I found out they are asking for submissions for what Pictures/Sounds of the Year. So here is mine. If you like it please follow the link and vote

Isaiah is what stands out for me this year. I have always wanted a son to dress up in those cute outfits and hats but when I found out I was pregnant I had mixed feelings. I knew I would love him, but I wanted to move before I had the baby. My fiance and I had talked about moving but the news of the baby pushed everything up. Where I am living my mother’s house there are 8 of us in a two bedroom. I was so worried and stressed trying to find a place, making sure the baby had everything he needed and just wondering how things would work out; that I ended up going into labor 3 weeks early. When he was born he was 4 lbs 10 oz. He was taken from my hospital room two days after he was born and placed into NICU. Then I learned what real worry was. He wasn’t eating enough, he had jaundice, I was trying to breast feed him. So on top of not having my newborn with me I also had to pump enough milk for him (that was no problem) but since I was discharged from the hospital and could only stay over one night (due to hospital regulations) I had to travel back and forth not only to deliver milk but more importantly to have the chance to hold my son. I just wanted him to be okay and to come home. When he did a week later realized it didn’t matter where home was as long as it was full of love. We are still looking for own home but in the meantime I am content and thankful. Thank you Lord

If then God so clothe the grass, which is to day in the field, and to morrow is cast into the oven: how much more will he clothe you, O ye of little faith? And seek not ye what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink, neither be ye of doubtful mind. For all these things do the nations of the world seek after: and your Father knoweth that ye have need of these things. But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you. Fear not, little flock; for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom. Luke 12:28-32

This passage reminds me to be at ease and to let God take care of things. I know he will provide. I need to focus on praising him for what he has done. Someone said praise him in the midst of the storm.

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Susie’s Story- What comes next…

28 Nov

INT- Law Office- Noon

The sun can be seen through the windows in the office. ATTORNEY JAMES DORNER sits behind a large wooden desk. Despite the heat he is wearing a charcoal-colored suit. JAMES is reviewing a thick file; his eyes occasionally drift to a picture on his desk.

JAMES CLEARS his throat

MS. OLIVE when was the last time you saw your parents?

A table in the middle of the room seats three people. JAMES rises from his desk; and walks to the front of the desk to better view his clients.


JAMES approaches the girl who sits at the table. SUSAN OLIVE is in her early teens. Her bleached blond hair hangs limply around her shoulders; her face is smudged with dirt. She is absent mindedly staring out of the window.

The sooner you answer my questions,
the sooner you can get out there and enjoy the weather…MS. OLIVE?


MS. OLIVE is my mother; erebody calls me SUSIE. And I ain’t done nothing wrong

I need to get to the bottom of what happened.
And I can’t do that without your cooperation.
Where are your parents MS. OLIVE?

My parents too busy workin big,
important jobs like you; to worry bout me.
I’s just doing what Mr. Roberts ask me to do.
Said I could make a lil money an’ be able to be on my own.

Her voice lowers she turns back to look out the window.

Don’t care about no parents.

JAMES saunters back to his desk. We can now see the picture on his desk. The frame shows a woman and a young girl. JAMES is turning through his file when DOUG ROBERTS interrupts him. DOUG is in his mid forties he’s wearing casual clothes a collar shirt and slacks.

Yeah she was workin for me.
Her parents didn’t give a damn about her I took her in;
treat her good. Like my own family.

DOUG narrows his eyes as he speaks to JAMES.

Somebody try to hurt SUSIE; I am hurt them first.

He turns to look at the other MAN at the table. With a smile he speaks.

Just ask my mans over here.
He was watching, he saw what happened.

The man at the table is STEVE HUNT. Steve is in his early thirties, wearing a flannel shirt, jeans and trucker hat. As he speaks he puts out his cigarette and spits out his words.

I ain’t seen shit!

JAMES runs his fingers through his hair. SUSIE LOOKS toward STEVE.

You muthafucka you seen everything!
You ain’t do shit. You outta be dead too. Juss like yo friend!

SUSIE is quiet again as she lights up a cigarette. DOUG turns to JAMES.

What would you do if someone was your family, man?
If that was your daughter? Huh what would you do?

JAMES sighs and turns toward the window. We again see the picture of the woman and girl on his desk.

Just my luck

27 Nov

As im sitting here with a nice cup of hot tea I am reminded of yesterdays mess (that’s all I can call it right now) So after an uneventful Thanksgiving dinner at my Aunts house my boyfriend and I decided to go out. If you are anywhere near Michigan you probably had the same weather conditions as we did rain/light flurries. I’m driving in the dark, in the rain squinting to see with my contacts on. We arrive safely (phew) We are designated a spot to park in, as I’m driving to the parking spot. I see a handicap sign posted (dun dun dun). I look down at the pavement to see what color the lines are. Faded blue and faded yellow overlapping in the same spot. Problem. Its dark so I don’t want to park too far, I’ve got the kids and don’t want them to get wet and on top of that I’m dog tired. Can you guess what I did. Yes, I parked. Less than an hour later I was ticketed. SMH was the officer just waiting for me to exit the vehicle? What can I do no one to argue with, or fuss at but myself; since the ticket had already been printed. And I’m sure the officer was on his/her jolly way writing and printing tickets. In ticket heaven My only redemption will be to dispute the ticket in court. I have pictures of the spot, although I did see the sign I don’t think they had it clearly marked. So I await 12/14 to plead my case and hopefully avoid another citation. And to Office L. Hernandez of Farmington Hills Police force Happy Thanksgiving

Its Faded