My Two Loves

15 Apr

Days work is done. Kids have been bathed, dinner is done, baby is sleeping. I’m up as usual, thinking. Someone please tell me how to get my brain to go to sleep.

After another day with the kids and everything that goes along with that; I’m thinking of exploring other options. What does that mean?

Do I need to spend all day with my two children at home? Its not like we’re here learning mandarin; or working on Jr. Einstein science projects. Don’t get me wrong I am trying to step it up; we will be doing some art projects and we are having more story time. With Isaiah and Juliet its no cake walk.

Hey it could be worse. Like….

Working a minimum wage job; sitting down all day. Calling people begging for donations aka “fundraising”. Lying, being treated as a juvenile, HAVING to gossip with your bosses. Pumping milk in the conference room; being burst in on more than once.

Yes, this is the glass half full. This position I formerly held did offer flexibility, it was part-time w/option for full. More important, it was a laugh. Often we called it the “circus”. I could talk for hours about that job. Who wants a job?

I returned to work when Juliet was 5 weeks old. I missed her; I longed to spend more time with her. Here I am at the cross roads

A. I could continue to stay at home with the kids. At least until they enter pre-school

B. I could run away. (Joke)

C. I could go back to work.

I don’t want to leave the task of raising my children to someone else. I mean I wish I could teach them myself. Who really can train our children better than us, their parents. There is also the fact I really don’t trust anyone but their grandparents with them. Teachers, grandparents, and trust that’s another blog.

I do want a career.

I love to write, to film; to be creative. How can I merge the two? Guess I’ll just have to run away…….
(Joke)

Back to my hunt for the perfect career.

She's having fun

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One Response to “My Two Loves”

  1. Keva April 16, 2011 at 5:19 pm #

    Love this and I feel you as mother. I would to work from home and be a stay at home mom. That is my ultimate goal.

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